Monday, March 29, 2010

happy.

so i'm at uni.
again. (i do tend to come here a lot, its sort of the way :P)
and have time to kill before more winger rehearsals this afternoon.
don't really have that much to comment on, since i said most of what has happened in my life this past week.
I went to rehearsals yesterday
played one of my favourite games
sitting in a circle of chairs, person in the middle ask somebody "do you like your neighbours?" if the answer is no the two people beside must switch places, if they say yes, they have to give a clause, of people that they don't like, and then anybody who matches this description must stand up and move to a chair now also vacant. All the while the person who was in the middle must find a place to sit.
twas hilarious.
the director of the shows example was,
"yes, but i don't like red heads"
- "theres nobody in the cast with red hair"
- "yes well, there is a reason for this"
definitely entertaining.
its the 80's, there was no such thing as ranga then :P
nawww. poor rangas.
lol.
oh - after deciding to start a blog i have been told the computer lab closes in 15minutes.
how upsetting.
i will probably not finish this now - or even tonight... will be funny when i do post it.
slightly aggrivating that the timestamp is when i started writing, not when i post.
especially when there are days in between.
lol.
sorry - rannting :P

i think i'm coming down with a cold.
probably because of foam.
but i refuse to admit its because of foam, because i loved it so.
:-)

only one more day of uni this week - and then BREAK!
yay.
wish i was going camping. that would be sweet.
i need to get away i think.
not until winger is over though.
i can wait.
just :P

i often feel - this blog seems so depressing, but its not meant to.
my silly/quirky style of writing short sentences - doesn't convey well i feel.
*shrugs*
i suppose it doesnt help its the internet.
everything just seems unfortunately emo.
lol.

had a discussion, awhile ago actually, with maccas
about glows.
and how people have certain glow about them.
and if you are sad/lonely/stressed it disappears.
well - being an unfortunately natural smiler... i feel i have this.
i smile/laugh a lot.
like right now for instance.
i look out the window next to me, over the university with a beautiful view, and can't help but smile.
i love this place.
i love not having high school and all its unfortunate stress.
i love the people i spend time with here.
i love what my life is like now.
and it makes me smile.
what was my point?
well - the internet doesnt convey that.
it doesn't show just how happy i am, whilst stating facts.
facts can be happy :-)
especially if you have a mathematical brain like mine.
i suppose - its just how i roll.
obviously its not the same for everybody. lol.

ahhhhhhh
i don't really know why im so gleeful this afternoon.
maybe its the caffeine.
maybe its the fact i finished my assignments.
and my chem ILT.
or maybe, just maybe.
its because this is what life should be like.

happy.
yeah. i think i'll post now
yay for quick entries :P

Friday, March 26, 2010

foamy goodness. + winger

I know its been a long time since i've updated.
again.
i keep thinking throughout the day "i should put that in my blog"
but then i get home.
and forget.
orrrr sleep.
so - my apologies team, i will try harder.
actually, thats a lie, but enjoy what you do get. haha.

so - this week has been rather intense.
spent monday at uni, sleep deprived for no real good reason.
needing to do work, lacking the mental capacity to do so.
i'm sure something else interesting happened.
I feel slightly bad for not remembering...

tuesday i was late for uni.
thought i would be locked out of my prac.
ended up rushing and stuffing up an early step in the prac
result?
i finished with 0.03g's of paracetamol.
expectancy = 1.30grams.
will be surprised if i pass that one...
lol.
spent the afternoon studying.
and doing my assignment.
at least i picked an article.
its a start right?

wednesday.
now we're talking.
uni from 10-6.
epicly long day.
as always.
enjoyable though, mostly.
Had my first exam.
Physics. 20mins.
5%
felt good about it.
so that was nice :-)
spent my lunch break doing my assignment.
and prelab for the prac the next day.

had my first experience of abusing a boyfriend with a licence.
who likes me enough to pick me up after uni ^_^
handy.
no bus trip home.
yay.
:-)

got home and got ready for the most epic night in a long time.
70's costume.
bright colours. head band. glitter. shorts.
had dinner.
pre drinks.
cleaned my room for those sleeping there that night.
got dropped off by my father @ colonial hotel.
realized i forgot my id.
felt a bit like dancer :P
walked the streets to a pub.
india and i shared a jug of beer.

well - he had a jug and i had some :P
went via 7/11
had a large slurpee with bicardi. a lot of bicardi.

walked back to the club - to meet my father who loves me enough to bring me my id =]
now the fun REALLY begins.

foam party.
foam - at - a - club.
words cannot express how amazing this sort of thing is.
imagine your typical club.
now its a mosh.
and slippery.
bubbles. everywhere.
people. flesh. music. lights.
knee deep in foam.
rides on shoulders.
hook ups left right and centre.
people falling, and being carried.
dancing.
grinding.
singing.
jumping.
kissing.
holding.
smiling.
laughing.
tripping.
swearing.
drinking.
having.
a.
fucking.
blast.

seriously guys, amazing.
got asked at the end of the night which school i did ballet at.
I felt pretty cool being asked that.
left the club at around 3am.
went to maccas
dripping.
sloppy wet foot prints through the store.
poor store :P

afterwards vet, india, and commerce stayed at my house.
taxi'd it back.
funsies.
of course this meant i did NOT get enough sleep.
definitely worth it.
but still true.
sleep is for the weak :P

went to uni on 2hours sleep.
physics prac.
thank god my prac partners are good.
although one was also at foam.
we compared stories.
amazing.
spent the afternoon writing my assignment.
due that afternoon.
im so organised :-)
once it was done i went home.

fell asleep on the bus - missed my stop, luckily only by one.
*phew*
went home.
napped for 5mins.
was nice.
went to grease.
congrats CMTC. great show.
thoroughly enjoyed it.

i have looked forward to being the alumni on alumni night since i was in year 10.
brilliant
sober though - slightly dissapointed by this.
if i had been forwarned... i would have had something to drink before getting there.
pity.
still.
show was brilliant.
enjoyable. etc.
good job kiddies.

________________(time lapse)________________________

left to go out last night.
before finishing the blog.
oh my god.
okay.
so it was the cast party for wedding singer.
very intense night.
most intense night ever actually
80's themed.
shoulder pads.
big hair.
lots of makeup.
many with glow in the dark items.
musical tunes.
80's tunes.
dancing and singing.
high pitched especially.
alcohol.
potentially too much alcohol.
:P
going to the park.
guy on heroin.

somebody got naked.
would have prefered not to have seen that penis...
great night though.
giant game of i never
giant game of spin the bottle.
most intense version of those two games i've ever seen.

wow.

i dont think i can adequately express the enviroment of this party.
on a blog.
but woah
mind. fucking. blown.
definitely divulged my entire life story to a complete stranger.
was also fun.
evident i drank too much.

highlight of the night though?
being shown this webpage

http://union.unimelb.edu.au/theatre/review-splendour-in-the-guild

if you love me.
read it.
nearly died.
with happiness and ecstasy.
:-)

yep. should just post this now.
I am sure there is more i could say.

so so much more.
but for now.
enough is. enough.
lol.


Tuesday, March 23, 2010

long time no blog.

feels like these are becoming sparingly further apart.
i have so much i could/should write about.
even more i could, but shouldn't and won't write about.


i suppose life can be interesting sometimes.
for example:

i just read sisters blog.
and as always am filled with a euphoria.
she just makes me happy.
her laughter, so pure, innocent and free.
she knows how to make people feel loved.
but more importantly, she really knows how to love.

i think my sleep deprivation is making me emotional.
but in a good way? haha.
i read her blog - and just feel loved. appreciated and wanted.
feelings i haven't felt in what feels like a very long time.
and now i feel pretty much always.
and its because of certain individuals.

who i could never thank enough.
for holding my hand, pulling me up and holding me with them.
etrdsdcvt4d

thats me taking my pure bubble of love out on the keyboard.

sometimes i question what i did to get such a beautiful set of friends.

well - i suppose i should describe my last few days then.


survived the show everybody.
got to the end. no MAJOR stuff ups.
i didnt think. but then again - in comparison to how it had sounded... crap was better than atrocious. haha.

had coffee with maccas on friday.
she has a way to make somebody know so much more, and so much less, at exactly the same time. i wish that was a joke.
basically - more confused, and more clear at the same time.
insight. i suppose

exciting.
alcoholic slurpee - walking from swanston to brunswick street.
entertaining as hell.
tequila shots at a bar.
home late.
sleep much later again.
why do i do this to myself again?
oh yeah.

because its fun :-)

had work with cynic saturday.

less than 2hours sleep meant that my body was sort of hating on me.
however, i worked well.

free caffeine.
lots of chairs, tables,boxes, potplants and whiteboards moved.
kfc for lunch.

spa afterwards to heal our aching bodies.
fun chats with cynic

went and saw "Bare"
brilliant show. amazing people. and music.

woah.
would love to be in that show one day.


stayed at dancers house.
got to his house, to find germany and sister drunk on the couch/floor.
don't bother denying it guys. lol.
went to sleep much to early because i couldn't force myself to stay awake.

photos of such things.
grr @ germany
:P

got up early next morning.

headed to city romp. a - may - zing.
so much fun.
perfect, germany, sister, dancer, and myself as the "nacho5" and another friend made the team "nacho5+1"
was everything i could have hoped for.
even went to ministry of dance. and enjoyed crazy dance requirements. hehe.
good for us. the dancers.

of course finished my weekend with rehearsals.
isn't a weekend without some of THOSE. :D
fun and exciting.

LOVE my part in winger.
even get to sing.
this excites me greatly :-)
cannot wait for this show.

its going to be pretty damn awesome :-)

well, thats all for now.
sending my love to you.
a very happy and content Sarah.
(using blog as procrastination :P)



xox

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

voices and names.

its late at night.
and as per usual.
i'm on msn.
talking to people i like.

and discussing the ability to pick up inflection from text.
its strange. but if you know the person reasonably well it actually isn't that difficult.

as human beings we have ways and manners of saying things which we use often.
this transposes to our typed speech and can be noticed if observed carefully.
but the question is.
how well do you need to know somebody before you can do this?
are some people just genuinely better at this.
do you need to know the person intimately, or just talk to them a lot?
or is it some strange mix in between.
who knows.

continuing from here my mind went wierd and wonderful places.

basically trailing the thoughts of the abyss.
but i was drawn to the significance of using somebody elses name.
think about it.
how often in speech do you directly reference somebody?
its not really that often

but yet, by doing so, the meaning or intention of what you say, can quite easily be changed.

personally i'm quite fond of using names.
do it to often.
people often take it incorrectly.
but i also enjoy hearing my own.
egotistical? a little.
no - i think it just feels - intimate. because nobody does it nowadays.

anyways.

thats my little rant fot his evening.
goodnight all
xox

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

to my faithful blogians.

had an interesting conversation with somebody who shall remain literally nameless.
for their own safety really :P
about blogs.
and specifically about people discussing MY blog.

i do believe it was quoted as "insightful"
well. yes. that sort of IS the point.

anyways - it brought me to realize there are a few things i must discuss.
you, blogger who reads but knows very little about me, are probably coming to some very incorrect assumptions.
actually - i know you are.
not everything in my life revolves around one incident.
it doesnt.
nor does anybodys.
we all must learn from past experiences that we have lived.
and of course they will always affect us in someway.
doesn't mean they drive every decision, or more importantly, every emotion we have.

for example, anybody who knows me, or has spoken to me would know my last blog was about a performance im in, and feeling self conscious/stressing about.
not what you all probably assumed.

i just went through a lot of my old blogs.
reading things i wrote.
and it baffles me a little - but a lot of things are not references to what you would/do assume.
this annoys me slightly.
but then is kinda entertaining at the same time.
because its almost as if you believe my life was dictated by one changing moment.
which is partially right.
the past few months have been extremely different to how i would ever have expected.
except, not because of the one reason you think. but because of many.

for example, the last time i felt heartbroken was because i didn't think my best friend wanted to speak to me. i was wrong.
clearly being extremely female.
but it was a comment on that.
not what you all seem to assume.
in actual fact i try to keep as much of that out of my blog as possible.
because if you read this purely to find out about that...
well.
a. you are sad.
b. maybe you should just talk to me?/ask me about it?

*sigh*

that would be too difficult though wouldnt it.


ahwell. ending rant now.
i suppose i shouldn't have to defend myself to the blog reader.
its all your choice to take it how you will.
but just so you know - you're wrong.

Monday, March 15, 2010

some things

in life.
are just not meant to be easy.
maybe thats half the fun.

but when is too hard.

actually too hard?
when is it no longer worth the effort.
when do you fold instead of calling all in?
yay for poker references ^_^



ooooooohhhh
quote from b + s

"sometimes the things that scare you most, are the things which make you happiest"

so true.

no title.

another blog.
wont actually post until i get home (because clearly i will need to upload a picture)
but have some time to spare at uni, so why not update my blog?


sitting with dancer waiting for rehearsals.
stressing about splendour on friday.
definitely. not. ready.
equally stressing about doing two pracs this week.
and a test next.
and having such a busy life.
why do i do this to myself again?
oh yeah. because its fun :-

wedding singer rehearsals at 6.
splendour 6.45.
could my life get any crazier?
potentially. but we try not to think about it.


had an amazing. and emotional. weekend.
friday night was the surprise going away for america
definitely worth every scared moment.
every argument.
everything.
worth it 10 fold.
she's worth it. but clearly if you read my blog

you already know that.

had a few people stay over.

america. vet. curls. pilot. india.
fun evening.
chat roulette.
seriously WAY too much penis.
found out that it uses sound... after bagging someone and them commenting.
how awkward.
reason you shouldn't have computer on mute all the time.
sleeping arrangements were interesting.

well not for me.
but for others :-)
not enough sleep.

alarm went off much too early for work.

spent saturday driving.
pretty much.
working in frankston is sooo not what its cracked up to be.
1.5hours driving, picking up first aid kit included.
30mins late because i went via another venue
FOR work.
they should seriously talk to each other sometimes.
*sigh*
finally got home around 6.30ish.

5hours of pay - makes it worth it.
just.

went to a party.

yabc people.
drove and was sober.
extremely interesting talks with people who usually don't.
was fun, and enlightening.
can't really say much else.
i suppose some people are just really hard to gauge.

why was i even invited?
not complaining. i had a good time.

but do you actually like me?
its a serious question.
which creates more than it answers.
however - fun to ponder.

went home. to talk on msn.
of course.
fell asleep at the computer screen
this has never happened to me before.
clearly sleep deprivation kicked in.

spent sunday thinking i had rehearsals.
but they got cancelled
upsetting i definitely could have slept more.
did homework.
including chem prelab.
woooo.
im amazing. haha.

cynic dropped round.

thats what he does. :-)
helped him with maths.
realized i still cant do phyics.
and i have a test next week.
slightly awkward.
maybe should do that sometime.
spent the evening on msn.

huh. who woulda thought?
:-)
didn't fall asleep this time.

yay.
did stay up much too late however.
off topic - i think i'm hungry.
might go eat something.
will edit blog later to have a photo.

xx

Sunday, March 14, 2010

tribute.

today is a sad day.
not for anything bad happened (yet)
but because in much too short a time
America
will be just that.
leaving for America.

in the last two years, America has been one of the most amazing friends.
she has the uncanny ability to make me laugh when I need it most.
it wouldn’t matter who had died, when she was around.
you were happy.
she is the nicest, sweetest person alive.
friend to almost everybody.
and if she isn’t your friend – well… you don’t deserve her.
and you *points finger at specific person* really don’t.

honestly words cannot describe how shattered i am to say goodbye to her.
but it isn’t really goodbye.
because i refuse to let distance ruin our friendship.
she held my hand as i cried.
she listened to me rant at uncanny hours of the evening.
she has the closest sleeping pattern and internet use to mine – which I shall miss.
a lot.

she will listen.
she will help. and guide.
she would never hurt a friend.
her loyalty is amazing.
she is beautiful and kind.
young and lively.
and I don’t know if I mentioned it.

One of the best friends I’ve ever had.

I genuinely love her.
And although I say this a lot.
I don’t think there are that many people I genuinely love.
100%

she gives amazing hugs.
she is a pretty good kisser. for a girl.
she has touched me inappropriately.
and although i complain,
i secretly loved it.

she is dangerous to have around herself.
car accidents. etc.
body that hates her.
its all a bit crazy.
however she still manages to come through it all smiling.
her ability to laugh at herself is one of the most humblest things in the world.
genuine beauty is what she is.
pure. beautiful. love.

I know that I already miss her.
but i want her to know.
that no matter what.
she will have a friend in me.
for life.
no matter how far away she is.
i am here to talk to.
and to listen.
I love her.

You hear that Stephanie Met?

I love you.

wowowowowow – this blog is waaaay too mushy.
yet true.
all true.

I think I will end it there before i cry myself a river.

Xox

















Thursday, March 11, 2010

complaints and compliments.

got complaints i hadnt posted a blog in awhile.
well - that i didnt for a while.
i'm sorry devoted bloggers.
i do still love you.


spent afternoon with gymnast, perfect, germany, and dancer
love these people a lot.

was chastized for not mentioning the op shop.
should have. because it was fun.
the op shopping experience that is.
last thursday perfect and i went op-shopping.
saw silly things, and both still managed to buy something.

shorts for me.
knitted vest for her.
she even wore it today. exciting.
i love us.

but more importantly i love them.
they manage to make me smile. always.
:-)
impressive effort.
i know that germany said said something funny
which i was informed needed to be blogged.
would be better though - if i could remember it.
something about filling.
OH
"woaah! you hid that deep"
thanks germany. i try :P

had other things i felt like discussing.
but as per usual.
cannot remember them.
sigh.

i do believe i was going to discuss passive agression.
but maybe not.
i suppose i will now.
its such a strange concept.
being nice, and mean, at the same time.
and yet, as a female, i know i am quite good at it.
the funny thing is - the amount of people who do it is extreme.
people who would never even realize it.
people who can see it in me, who complain about it.
don't realize they too are the same.

on the most part, i don't do it on purpose.
i'm pretty good at being angry at those who i'm angry at.
and they are usually well aware of it.
its only when - well, when i dont feel i should be angry that it happens.
or if i'm trying to be nice to someone i dont want to be.

i'm getting much better though.
in the most part.

but thats not really what i wanted to discuss.
naah.
more just the fine line, between joking and being serious.
about a mean joke, and playful banter.
where is the line?

i call people names. bully and mock.

but it is 99% of the time. just a joke.
not the NICEST of jokes, but a joke none-the less.
the question is. when is that too much?
what happens when somebody takes you too seriously?
and what do you do to stop?
all extremely philosophical questions.

clearly i should just stop.
but is it that simple?
should i have to change who i am. because im missunderstood?

should anybody?
its not meant to be harmful.

it isnt serious.
maybe its taken that way by choice.
a choice that i don't make.
but alas, you, the offended make.
so don't? laugh at yourself like i do.
its much healthier :-)

ahhh.
on a much lighter note.
still in complete awe of her life at the moment.
happiness she feels for a lot of things.
when and where did this come from?
light at the end of every tunnel boys and girls.
definite light.

would like to thank

germany - for being by my side at my ugliest moments in life, and yet, still willing to stick around.

sister - for being another sister. sharing a bed with me just cause i needed somebody. for just being herself, in the most magnificant ways possible.

dancer - even though i put him through some really hard situations. not to mention stretching him to every length, he still stood by me. love him.

perfect - for just generally being perfect. subtle, and honest. sweet and caring. and a good cook. definitely that.


vet - for having an interesting life. to compliment mine. but more importantly for always listening. always.

poker - for being able to make me laugh. for making ever serious situation, seem less important. and more correct to its weight.

maccas - for listening to me rant. about the same thing. many times. and still not being sick or bored of me. or judging me. basically, for understanding me when i needed somebody too. love you.

cynic - for always dropping by. keeps life interesting.

bob - for just being who you are. partying with me. drinking the night away when i needed it. sharing a bed. rolling on said bed giggling from very little champaigne. for just being. xx


india - for being you. for making me laugh. for making me happy. for giving me flowers. for making me feel wanted. for making me alive. for sucking at bowling just as much as i do. for dealing with my shit. for... well... did i mention for being you?

the list goes on. and on.

but basically, those people.
THANKYOU
you rock.
and i'm oh so grateful you are in my life.
:-)
happiness.
share it.
its worth it.
:-)

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

happy.

today was an intense.
crazy. painful. tiresome.
but even more so.
an example of my emotional rollercoaster of a life.
happy.
home. and completely and utterly.
happy.
thats really all there is to it.
and i love it :-)

spent way too many hours at uni.
fell asleep in chem.
but not maths.
for once.
loved physics. typical? i think so.
spent crim. passing notes with vet
like again, whats new?
crim tute was funny - speed dating.
nice.

loved rehearsals the most.
am in love with winger cast.
know i may be jeapordizing the show by being there.
BUT - they are still letting me...
and i love it so.
so... i'm staying?
love the people.
feel - welcomed. and loved.
i know i said this yesterday.
but its still true.

had interesting discussions.
came to a lot of new conclusions.
about stuff i discussed last night.
i felt guilty, but i don't now.
i shouldn't have to feel guilty for being happy
:-)
and as such.
refuse to.
*sticks out tounge*
but seriously - it causes resentment.
me to others.
others to me.
its not worth it.
life should just, be happy.
and why not? :-)
haha best epiphiny EVER.
i think so.

equally as good as
i am still the same person.
i act the same way.
i react the same way.
i even feel the same way.
i may grow older.
i may mature.
i may learn a bigger vocabularly and verbose talking style.
but i will still be me.
now and forever.
this hasn't and never will change.
:-)

funny convo with my mum.
"mum - i need new jeans.
seriously, now i have THREE pairs that can be taken off without undoing them"
"i don't think i like the sound of THAT" *raises eyebrows*
lol.
thanks mum.
love you a lot :-)
i think she thinks i'm a slut.
or knows?
JOKE! thinks. definitely thinks.
haha.

have bruises all over my entire body.
OH - for those who missed it.
according to google i have luekemia.
yeaaaah. my life is great :-)
haha.
"weight loss"
"easily bruised"
"fatigue"
"general feeling of bodily discomfort"
there was a longer list but i cant remember them now
haha. was funny.
no i do not have cancer :-)
just an example google = gone to far.
in a pretty epic way.


feel that i am bringing back the epic.
and by this i mean saying it a lot again.
come see my show next friday. 8pm.
"splendour in the guild"
seriously AMAZINGness ensures.
well thats all.
for now.
Xx

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

anew.

well - obviously the old, every day blog idea, died.
but i decided i would still write some things here.

not so much day - day.
just more, thoughts and what not.
i realize i didn't give you all updates on my life.
some will be more behind than others. but ohwell.
small recap.
got into wedding singer.
got called back for the lead.
didn't get it. however enjoyed the experience muchly.
feel very well loved.
had first rehearsal.
best. cast. ever.
i feel like i've been welcomed into a family.
more than cmtc.
more than yabc.
its fun.
and makes me happy.

very happy :-)

uni is new.
and exciting.
and strange.
lots of new faces. and friends.
and people to catch up with.
don't know how to fit my whole life in.
uni. job. boy. friends. social life. musical. homework. busy.
i will find a way.
i know i will.
just - going to be a stretch.

thought calc 2. would be fun.
mistake.
dying.
think criminolgy is amazing.
feel physics lecturer is still hilarious.
practically a father.
well he IS a father. but like a new one.
have spent a lot of time hiding the truth recently.
finally i'm not.
feel that this helps in life.
parents know the truth.
directors know the truth.
people who need to - do.
its nice.

quite a lot of new things.
its slightly overwhelming.
i don't know how to feel or think.
i should be happy.
and mostly i am.
but yet something says i shouldn't be.
that i can't be.
or that its wrong.
and then i return. to that wierd place.
boo.
teenagers hate change.
me included. especially.
so its so wierd for my whole life.
to be new.

its funny because things are actually better.
and yet because they are different it feels strange.
i wish this was easier than it was.
dear life. you kind of suck.
emotions - you make no sense.
please. be better.
thankyou.
in my head i know, im happier.
that im healthier.
that im being treated better by those that matter.
and that those who dont.
dont have a part in my life anymore.
this should be enough.
is it?

also - need new clothes.
nothing fits properly anymore.
i have 3 pairs of jeans i can remove.
without undoing.
this makes me happy.
but is kinda annoying - considering the requirement of new clothes.
and again.
new things = kinda bad :P

well - im not quoting a song anymore.
haha.

peace out.
xx

Monday, March 1, 2010

twentyfive.

another blog.
stayed up much too late
talking on msn.
5.31am. got up at 7.45.
much too short a sleep.

first day of uni.
beautiful weather.
ran to the bus. again.
bought books
had lectures
sat with people.
met new people.
enjoyable.

chem = dull
notes with vet for the win.
maths = easy for now.
good lecture buddies too.
physics = funny as all hell.
new people to sit with.
crim. = most interesting
sat with new and old. fun.

had a crappy afternoon.
heartbroken.
i'll get over it.


my thoughts are way more complicated then they need to be.
trust? why is it so difficult?

mmm.
can't be bothered with this. i mean the blog.
i feel the blog dwindling.
maybe this is important?
less to say.
less use as a procrastination tool.


"Cause I've been looking in the back of the book for the answers
Hoping the bell wouldn't chime
But I'm not ready to put down my pencil just yet
There are too many answers that I didn't get
I need a little less
pressure and a little more time"


[a little more homework. thirteen]





goodbye.