planes. trains. and everything awesome :)

europe.
less than a month away.
if only exams weren't so close - interesting conundrum there...

soo. ridiculously excited.
be happy bloggers.
freedom is just around the corner.


route.



travel.

oh wow guys.
this is really happening.
i am going to travel around europe.
with the guy i love.
sleeping in 5 different countries.
paris. nice. in the winter.
oh wow.
i. can. not. wait.
will be the most brilliant experience of my life.
and not to mention...
quite romantic!
haha.
love.

thankyou.

to whom ever posted the comment on my last blog.
i would very much like to know who you are.
but thanks regardless.
what you said was very true.
and i did know it.
i was just sleep deprived and willing to accept the worst.
it happens.
but thankyou.
you words were kind.
and did make me feel loved.
which i suppose is a feeling thats been void for a little while.
not completely.
but its not quite the same when you can't properly communicate :(

have come to the conclusion in the last week - few days - that i want to meet up with india
so that is what i'm going to do.
will be flying to france once exams are over.
the excitement i feel is actually ridiculous.
france.
nice.
amsterdam.
maybe italy
england.
ahhh. it will be amazing!

well - i should sleep.
goodnight blog world.
and thanks for listening
even when i've been angsty and attention grabbing.
but wait - its a blog!
haha
nightynight.
xx

Why?

Do i destroy all relationships that matter to me?
am i exactly like my mother?
am i too passionate for my own good?
do i care so much about people and things that do not matter?
is it that regardless of attributes i wish i didn't have - i still do?
do some people always see the worst, myself especially?
Do things always end up back like this?

music: medicine for the soul.

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb
Without a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home 

there is something to be said.
for a way a song.
regardless of its lyrics.
can inspire emotion.
pasion.
feelings.
regardless of what we want to feel or think.
or what logic says.
we can relate to every song ever written.
even if not just because of its lyrics.
but because of raw emotion.
every song has a raw emotion, that on some basic level everybody can relate to.

i applaud evanescence.
they have beautiful songs.
that
- despide the fact i am as happy as larry -
will leave me close to tears.
or with the radio at full ball singing my lungs out.
(usually best when im driving alone. apologies for those who've had to suffer it when i'm not alone)
vague point?
that music, even if it doesnt relate to our situation lyrically, will relate to us.

we will find the two lines that could potentially apply to us.
and feel the whole song is about something completely different then it is.
obviously we have the ability to see that it has a different meaning.
but that is what it will mean to us.
it is due to this.
that we think songs express our emotions.
we listen to them
sing them.
associate them to ourselves.
and in the process - heal.
emotions we wouldn't express, talk about, let alone think about.
slowly pour.
and we are forced to feel.
and as such.
in a manner of speaking.
are expressing our own emotions.

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life 

oh how i love music.
^_^

Sleepless.

Cannot sleep.
watching o.c.
rolling over causes my bed to squeek.
much more entertaining when you're not alone :(
sleep is so not coming to me.
lonely.
would give anything for a specific hug.
pity its miles away...
or more specifically months away.
first of October.
November is still much. much too far away.
here you go bloggers.
insight into my inner mind.
i always think the most when I'm about to sleep.
or can't sleep.
now i shall try again.
much love my faithful blogians.
xo