by request.

i seem to say this a lot.
long time. no blog.
i should go to sleep.
but i will not.
instead i shall discuss my life and what not.
well - probably not actually.


i've been busy.
worked 33 hours last week...
that was a crazy week.
will be nice a rich though.
ha.
i wish.
i'm pretty good at spending money too.


had a brilliant week whilst my parents were away.
independance.
change.
growth.
maturity.
freedom.
excitement.
love.


yeah yeah.

what else?

i'm enjoying uni.
well - not physics.
but i love chem.
and lin. algebras not too bad either.


what else?
next week is prosh.
i have a trike guys.
get pumped.
i also have 3 work shifts on thursday alone.

thats right. this thursday = the death of me.
but it will be grand. seriously. seriously grand :)

what else?
life is pretty swell.
swell is not as blog interesting is it?
depressing. moody. deep.
blah. blah. blah.

I have awesome friends.
does that make a good blog?
:)

i've spent a lot of time reflecting my life.
thinking about life.
about how quickly time passes.
how we spend most of life wishing and dreaming.
but very rarely achieving.
not in a bad way - its just the truth.
I relate everything back to the sims and i apologise for that.
but for instance:
the game is fun, and exhilirating aiming for your life goal.
but once they reach it?
what then?
they are happy, but its not indefinite...
and they just await death.
depressing. but true.
i guess what im saying is.
its about striving for our goals, and getting the most out of life that matters most.
not actually achieving our goals.
another thing i've been thinking about.
a quote from the amazing charmed.
which i cant remember so i will paraphrase.
but basically death (who is a person) discusses the importance of death.
it is only because of the existence of death, and a deadline, that we are forced to live.
without it, we lose the ability to live.
and so, we must grapple to do as much as possible.
for some, leave our mark, before we cease to exist.

i suppose i've realized recently im a work-a-holic.
but what do i stand to lose because of this?
my friends?
my family?
my relationships?
my time?
my sanity?
i dont want to lose any of this.
whilst i realize its all about the game and not the score, why does it matter so much?
and yet. it does.

there you go.
something philisophical to leave you all to chew down on.

xx