weddings.

It has been a very long time since I've written a blog.
I suppose its for a number of reasons. Not because I haven't had anything to say, more, I haven't found time to write it.
but I suppose today, I as I sit at work, listening to yet another wedding speech, I feel the need to blog.
weddings: is it just me or do they place such an unnecessary pressure on perfection? The day is the bride and grooms special day which should, in theory, only occur once in their life, and thus needs to be "spectacular". For instance, this current wedding I am at, there is a photobooth, stretch hummer, inside fireworks, dj, professional photographer and all you can eat buffet. It's insane. "perfect"

This is not my only issue with weddings. There is something about weddings that just leaves me questioning... how is it that every marriage is "pure happiness" and yet 1 in 2 end in divorce? If you have been to as many weddings as I have, you begin to notice common themes. how every couple were "destined" for each other. Love at first sight. everybody always knew they would get married.
Really?
Maybe I'm a cynic, but I find this so hard to believe.
to me, this pedastool for marriage is a recipe for disaster. many may not share my feelings on this, but personally I'm of the belief that the "right" person is about opportunity and time, not true love. If you find a compatible, good looking person when you are of the appropriate "breeding" age, that person becomes "the one".
Moreover, no relationship is perfect, they have their ups and downs and there is no way marriage is easy. It is a life commitment based on love and trust, not "perfect person" instead, the person who makes life that little bit more bearable. Who's annoying habits you know, recognize and don't give a shit about, who you can fight with, hurt more than anybody else, and yet still come back. Honestly there is not a recipe. But weddings don't mean shit. Promising to love somebody is more than a false hope for "perfection" it doesn't exist in this world. and hoping for it, pretending like it exists, doesn't mean it will... In fact its setting you self up for disappointment.
Personally I see relationships like a hug- something of which I am quite fond- when you spoon, and are both facing the same direction, the hug is amazing, you fit one inside the other, and limbs are comfortably place. However when you face each other, sometimes it can work, but usually somebody is awkwardly positioned to comfort the other.
In a relationship, if you are both going the same direction, it works, comfortable and correct. But when you are each going your own way, you can hold out, and enjoy momentarily or short term, but eventually somebody will have to retire when their arm falls asleep.

wow... It is late and I am exhausted, I wrote this on my phone at work. Now to see if I can upload it... Fingers crossed.

weddings.

It has been a very long time since I've written a blog.
I suppose its for a number of reasons. Not because I haven't had anything to say, more, I haven't found time to write it.
but I suppose today, I as I sit at work, listening to yet another wedding speech, I feel the need to blog.
weddings: is it just me or do they place such an unnecessary pressure on perfection? The day is the bride and grooms special day which should, in theory, only occur once in their life, and thus needs to be "spectacular". For instance, this current wedding I am at, there is a photobooth, stretch hummer, inside fireworks, dj, professional photographer and all you can eat buffet. It's insane. "perfect"

This is not my only issue with weddings. There is something about weddings that just leaves me questioning... how is it that every marriage is "pure happiness" and yet 1 in 2 end in divorce? If you have been to as many weddings as I have, you begin to notice common themes. how every couple were "destined" for each other. Love at first sight. everybody always knew they would get married.
Really?
Maybe I'm a cynic, but I find this so hard to believe.
to me, this pedastool for marriage is a recipe for disaster. many may not share my feelings on this, but personally I'm of the belief that the "right" person is about opportunity and time, not true love. If you find a compatible, good looking person when you are of the appropriate "breeding" age, that person becomes "the one".
Moreover, no relationship is perfect, they have their ups and downs and there is no way marriage is easy. It is a life commitment based on love and trust, not "perfect person" instead, the person who makes life that little bit more bearable. Who's annoying habits you know, recognize and don't give a shit about, who you can fight with, hurt more than anybody else, and yet still come back. Honestly there is not a recipe. But weddings don't mean shit. Promising to love somebody is more than a false hope for "perfection" it doesn't exist in this world. and hoping for it, pretending like it exists, doesn't mean it will... In fact its setting you self up for disappointment.
Personally I see relationships like a hug- something of which I am quite fond- when you spoon, and are both facing the same direction, the hug is amazing, you fit one inside the other, and limbs are comfortably place. However when you face each other, sometimes it can work, but usually somebody is awkwardly positioned to comfort the other.
In a relationship, if you are both going the same direction, it works, comfortable and correct. But when you are each going your own way, you can hold out, and enjoy momentarily or short term, but eventually somebody will have to retire when their arm falls asleep.

wow... It is late and I am exhausted, I wrote this on my phone at work. Now to see if I can upload it... Fingers crossed.

so true.

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definitions.

Subset
A set A is  a subest of set B, if and on if whatever is a member of A is also a member of B:
Subspace
(of a vector space) a subset of the elements of a vector space thqt is itself a vector space. the element has to contain the zero element of the space.
Kernal
aka - null or solution space
set of all vectors that are mapped into zero. Thus the null space of a matrix A consists of all vectors x such that Ax = 0. The dimensions of a null space is called the nullity.

wow. if only i had looked up these definitions at the start of the semester.
dear penguin dictionary of mathematics.


i love you.

nerd status suffienciently rising.  

.

knowing. understanding. trusting. caring

when did it become, that regardless of everything, you understood me better than myself?
how long has it been that you knew me like this.
it feels like forever.
forever and a day.
and at the same time.
it feels like no time at all.
i question how i ever lived without it
the fact you know what i'm thinking before i do.
what im feeling.
you know the cause and the remedy.
you know how to make me happy.
(or sad when the mood so takes you)
you can read me better than anybody.
but its more than that.

you care.
you want to be there.
you understand. you know how difficult it is.
and still think its worth it.
i never knew it was possible.
for two people to actually want to spend as much time together.
as it is that i want to spend with you.
i struggle to fathom how i will survive the next 2 and a bit weeks.
but i know i will.
and the wait. will have been more than worth it.

xx

planes. trains. and everything awesome :)

europe.
less than a month away.
if only exams weren't so close - interesting conundrum there...

soo. ridiculously excited.
be happy bloggers.
freedom is just around the corner.


route.



travel.

oh wow guys.
this is really happening.
i am going to travel around europe.
with the guy i love.
sleeping in 5 different countries.
paris. nice. in the winter.
oh wow.
i. can. not. wait.
will be the most brilliant experience of my life.
and not to mention...
quite romantic!
haha.
love.