life

I suppose i never really realized just how busy i was.
counted the hours today (specific to this week monday - friday only)

uni contact hours = 21
work hours (paid) = 14
winger rehearsals = 8

total = 43

thats not including any homework i did, or will do.
for example 4 hours on the calc 2. assignment.
or studying for exams.
or doing my two prelabs.
or attempting to be a good student and actually reading the crim. reader

add all that with having a boyfriend and a pretty active social life,
conclusion?
sleep = lacking.

im actually not quite sure how i sleep at all atm.
its intense.
but so very very worth it.

i think, i actually function best when im busy.
weird though, because year 12 broke me.
but something is different.
i can't say what, or why. but it is.
i feel, busy, and stressed, but happy.
i know i'll survive.
better yet - i know its worth it, and that retrospectively i wouldn't want it any other way.

i love being in a musical.
i love uni - even if its somewhat demoralizing at times :P
i love the people i spend majority of my time with, even if at times it feels like its not enough.
i love money and security that comes with having a job.

i wouldnt want to give any of that up.
and so - i sacrifice sleep.

not much longer until winger opens.
14-22nd of may.
buy tickets.

also not much longer til exams.
i finish up on the 11th.
and then 6 weeks of break.
wow.
i suppose we will then see if i really do function best when busy.

what else do i have to say?
i suppose not all that much.
its been less than 12 hours.
but i still miss him.

ah. im such a girl.

enjoy readers.
xx