happy.

today was an intense.

crazy. painful. tiresome.

but even more so.

an example of my emotional rollercoaster of a life.

happy.

home. and completely and utterly.

happy.
thats really all there is to it.

and i love it :-)

spent way too many hours at uni.

fell asleep in chem.

but not maths.

for once.

loved physics. typical? i think so.

spent crim. passing notes with vet

like again, whats new?
crim tute was funny - speed dating.
nice.

loved rehearsals the most.

am in love with winger cast.

know i may be jeapordizing the show by being there.

BUT - they are still letting me...

and i love it so.

so... i'm staying?

love the people.

feel - welcomed. and loved.

i know i said this yesterday.

but its still true.

had interesting discussions.

came to a lot of new conclusions.

about stuff i discussed last night.

i felt guilty, but i don't now.

i shouldn't have to feel guilty for being happy

:-)

and as such.

refuse to.

*sticks out tounge*

but seriously - it causes resentment.

me to others.

others to me.
its not worth it.
life should just, be happy.

and why not? :-)
haha best epiphiny EVER.

i think so.

equally as good as

i am still the same person.

i act the same way.
i react the same way.

i even feel the same way.

i may grow older.

i may mature.

i may learn a bigger vocabularly and verbose talking style.

but i will still be me.

now and forever.

this hasn't and never will change.

:-)

funny convo with my mum.
"mum - i need new jeans.

seriously, now i have THREE pairs that can be taken off without undoing them"
"i don't think i like the sound of THAT" *raises eyebrows*
lol.

thanks mum.

love you a lot :-)

i think she thinks i'm a slut.

or knows?

JOKE! thinks. definitely thinks.

haha.

have bruises all over my entire body.

OH - for those who missed it.

according to google i have luekemia.

yeaaaah. my life is great :-)

haha.
"weight loss"
"easily bruised"
"fatigue"

"general feeling of bodily discomfort"

there was a longer list but i cant remember them now

haha. was funny.
no i do not have cancer :-)

just an example google = gone to far.

in a pretty epic way.

feel that i am bringing back the epic.

and by this i mean saying it a lot again.
come see my show next friday. 8pm.

"splendour in the guild"

seriously AMAZINGness ensures.

well thats all.

for now.

Xx