eighteen.

well.
today was - uninteresting.
woke at 1.23pm
although the doorbell had gone off many times before then.
and spot decided to slurp a juicebox in my ear earlier still...
why i will never know.
price one pays for sleeping 3 in a bed.
next to spot
i think i was upset because i wasn't in the middle.
it threw me off...

craziness persued last night after posting
(which although the time says 9pm... it was actually about 5am)
we talked and laughed and continued to drink.
spot came with a diabolical prank call.
which i will NEVER condone.
even if it is hilarious.
he would die.
and it would never be fair.
but it is still hilarious :-)

as far as today goes - pretty boring.
been listening to songs i need to know for the melbourne concert i'm going to be doing.
oh god.
freaking out at the difficulty of it.
i really hope i can do it.
i feel like i need to prove myself.
to a large number of people.
stupid.
uneccessary.
but still how i feel.

"the i love you song" - seriously listen to it.
INTENSE.
wow.

read more of "the twelve"
love perfect and feel that i need to see her soon, or i might die.
feel that this afternoon and evening are a blur.
recooperating from the intensity of last night.
realized i miss bob lots.
she's home but i can't see her because the upcoming week is insane.
UNLESS she comes to some of my insanity.
yeaaaah bitches.
haha. its a plan.
now i just need to tell her...

have been looking at cocktails with america
amazing.
was told by her that a certain drink would suit cynic.
looked at the link she gave which ended in the description
"strong, dark and as hot as you can make it"
LOL.
that is all.

could be at a party right now.
currently receiving messages from that party.
wish i could tell my parents.
wish i could have gone.
soon enough. soon enough.
i'll tell them.
well - not everything. but the need to know basics.

well - boring tonight.
sorry readers.

"its true, i love you
chimerical. c - h - i - m - e - r - i - c - a - l.
highly unrealistic wildly fanciful
that is correct
i love you"

[the i love you song. spelling bee]

thats all there is.