one.

Had a rather good day.
woke to a phone call i decided to ignore.
first thing i did was read an enjoyable message from india.
made my day.
forgot how nice it is to be wanted.
reminded me of conversation last night with germany.
miss that kid.
and his funny jokes.

went to the city and had chats with nice people.
shopping and stuff.
had slurpees.
discussed tom; however less than usual.
had to inform dancer that i am not in a relationship. yet.
unless of course you mean my marriage to poker.
however, i don't think anybody would mean that.
for the time being i want to enjoy being single.
to be able to be strong independantly.
i feel i'm achieving this.
i suppose i had to.

was told by dancer that i didn't write enough (if anything) about portsea in my blog.
i was happy he had read it.
i make no promises to fix this problem though.
that would require me to remember portsea.

just kidding. i do.
craziness, laughing, cooking, cleaning, crying, jumping, drinking
large number of personal conversations.
discussing details with people who will never look at me the same.
not really phased by this, in fact, i rather enjoy it.
one epic emotional rollercoster, which thankfully ended high.
overall portsea was great.
running definitely helped this.
difficult in one regard, but i suppose that was inevitable.
would take back the divulging of certain information if i could.
but i can't.
"cats out of the bag now"
i feel slightly bad for those potentially hurt in the process.


home less than 3minutes and i was already in trouble.
i need a job.
i will never be good enough for her.


need to turn down tasmanian scholarship.
unfortunate, because i would rather enjoy living in a different state from my parents. (mother)
i would miss my friends though.
and my sister.

need to organise things.
parties.
lots of them.

decided that today was a good example of summer days that i love.
as long as i was in the shade.
and not at home (but thats a given).
cannot express how much i enjoyed conversation topic.


quote for today:

"I believe we place our happiness in other peoples hands"
[affirmation. savage garden]

i'm happy again, maybe ^^ that ^^ is why?

peace out.